Jan 26 2009
Something Great is Coming
I woke up feeling hopeful this morning. That might sound extraordinary to you, but it’s actually not an uncommon occurrence for me. Don’t ask me to be hopeful in the evenings, though. I am too much of a morning person to make any logical sense late at night (too tired).
Anyway, I woke up with this strange feeling that Destiny was on its way to reach me, that I was moving towards my long-term goals more rapidly than I knew, and Destiny had noticed, and swerved around to meet me head-on. Naturally, my imagination created a vortex of sorts, filled with space-aged lights guiding me along, and when I met with Destiny, it was a whirlwind of embracing, excitement, and blinding white light.
Great feeling, you might say skeptically, even irritably. And believe me, even through my optimism, that ugly voice inside my head is still ranting that all I’ve had is rejection, that it won’t EVER happen, that I’m just a dreamer who’ll never reach my dreams because I am living the delusion that I’m more talented than I really am. And on a late night, after all I’ve done that day is clean up toys, scrub toilets, wipe bottoms, and run errands, I have an easy time believing that kind of fatalism.
But my happy voice is far stronger, thank God, and my temperament too cheery in general to accept that kind of despair. So I keep hoping, keep writing, and keep moving towards Destiny. I am, after all, a writer. And I am moving towards my Destiny as surely as I am breathing. I have more errands to run this morning, more obligations, but all afternoon I will be working on my writing, inching towards my goals–or, better yet, flying to them.
Where are you flying? What destiny awaits you?
It takes a certain amount of believing in oneself to actually amount to anything.
Every time I read more of your work, I am increasingly impressed with your growth and talent. Perhaps it’s not optimism but prescience.
I hope you are right. Either way, though, I’m happy, and that makes all the difference in the world.
But isn’t that the way we both are? We both keep working at our craft, keep trying, keep revising, keep growing, and we will both get there someday (wherever “there” is…).
Thanks for the encouragement!